Sister. Thank you so much for asking. Please finish eating, complete any work before reading this. I spent 1hr writing this. May it be of benefit to you if Allah wills.
If you didn't already know, you are already Muslim but you've been deviated from the path. A very newborn is born in a state of purity in which he is ready to accept the belief in Allah and His Oneness which is the fitrah. Then, his parents either teach him according to this fitrah or take him apart from the Right Path via teaching him wrong creeds and beliefs.
The Prophet (peace and blessings be him) also said, “Every child is born with the fitrah, but his parents make him a Jew, Christian or a Zoroastrian.” (Al-Bukhari and Muslim)
Before you try to enter Islam, satan whispers thoughts like ‘its too restrictive’, ‘boring’, ‘no freedom’ to prevent you from following the religion of one true God Allah causing eternal damnation in the afterlife.
Surely Satan is an enemy to you, so take him as an enemy. He only invites his followers to become inmates of the Blaze. [Quran 35:6]
There is a reason you’re being attracted to Islam, in Quran:
You will surely find the most bitter towards the believers to be the Jews and polytheists and the most gracious to be those who call themselves Christian. [Quran 5:82]
(and you will find the nearest in love to the believers those who say: “We are Christians.”) refers to those who call themselves Christians, who follow the religion of the Messiah and the teachings of his Injil. These people are generally more tolerant of Islam and its people, because of the mercy and kindness that their hearts acquired through part of the Messiah’s religion.
Christianity preaches love and kindness. He who strikes you on the right Cheek, then turn the left cheek for Him, Bible 57:27.
And because,
The Prophet (peace and blessings be him) said in a Qudsi Hadith, “Allah Almighty says, ‘I created all My servants hunafa’ (i.e. following the original religion of monotheism), then the devils misled them from their religion and forbade them from what I made lawful for them and commanded them to associate with Me that which I have not sent down any authority for.” (Muslim)
Once you realize the truth, accept it.
Say, ˹O Prophet,˺ “O humanity! The truth has surely come to you from your Lord. So whoever chooses to be guided, it is only for their own good. And whoever chooses to stray, it is only to their own loss. And I am not a keeper over you.” [Quran 6:104]
Trust me, when you enter Islam, Allah will make all of these worries non-existent. It’s about the initiation that’s time consuming. Ever wondered why studying is actually fun when you are in the midst of it? But when you try to leave listening to Music or watching that Tiktok reel to start studying is the hardest part, not even the studying itself? That’s just one of the many worldly parables I can compare it to.
Are you worried about people not accepting you for Islam?
Are you worried of the criticism you’ll face everyday?
If you believe in Allah, the only God, these miniscule worldly problems go away as soon as you enter the true religion:
Be patient ˹O Prophet˺, for your patience is only with Allah’s help. Do not grieve over those ˹who disbelieve˺, nor be distressed by their schemes. [Quran 16:127]
Say, “Surely my prayer, my sacrifice, my life, and my death are all for Allah—Lord of all worlds. [Quran 6:162]
Whoever Allah wills to guide, He opens their heart to Islam. [6:125]
Whenever you walk alone in the street at night sister, you may feel unsafe. But when you have your brother alongside you, you feel safe from any outside threats.
We are talking about God here.
Whenever you walk in Earth, without recognizing God, you will always be indecisive, scared, anxious, worldly problems will get the best of you etc. This is why you're indecisive right now, you don't know what to follow.
The reason Catholicism is attractive is:
1. You were born one, so you are more familiarized with it
2. If I were to enter a synagogue, I would still feel connected to the vibe, but what's all that, without feeling God's presence. Wouldn't I start doubting it?
Let me ask you, isn't God meant to be feared. Why would God punish you if you fear Him?
Why should Allah punish you if you are grateful and faithful? Allah is ever Appreciative, All-Knowing. [Quran 4:147]
God - Allah is meant to be feared and loved. Balancing the two wings of Fear of Allah and hope of mercy from Him, that's a sign of Iman 'faith' in Islam. But you know what? Let's balance it:
When Allah decreed the Creation He pledged Himself by writing in His book which is laid down with Him: My mercy prevails over my wrath. [Hadith Qudsi 1]
Allah's Messenger (ﷺ) said, "A prostitute was forgiven by Allah, because, passing by a panting dog near a well and seeing that the dog was about to die of thirst, she took off her shoe, and tying it with her head-cover she drew out some water for it. So, Allah forgave her because of that." [Sahih Bukhari 3321]
https://sunnah.com/qudsi40 <-- get to know Allah's nature here, you'll realize all along the definition of forgiveness was restricted to Christianity. I can share a thousand more narrations. + Let me say here, when you enter Islam, you don't lose Christ, you learn the truth about him.
+ You cannot say your mother won't reach Jannah.
You surely cannot guide whoever you like ˹O Prophet˺, but it is Allah Who guides whoever He wills, and He knows best who are ˹fit to be˺ guided. [Quran 28:56]
If Allah is guiding you right now, who says he won't guide your mother. Did you before writing this question, ever ponder in your lifetime that you would consider the option of reverting to Islam? (reverting, since you're already born in the natural disposition of Islam)
The reason you are writing the post is you're willing to be guided by Allah.
DM me sister. I will answer all your questions. Hope this helped by the will of God!